An Ordinary Life

One year ago today, I said goodbye to my best friend, the love of my life, the person who had the power to make me laugh a full on belly laugh, cry crocodile tears or so angry I could spit nails. The person who no matter what was going on around us, or how intense the situation was, I could be completely confident had my back and even if I was wrong, would take my side, then set me straight in private if need be.  Even with all of the challenges he faced in life, he ALWAYS made me feel like I could do anything and usually would get me started on the road to getting there. I loved him and had NO DOUBT he loved me. I’ve heard time heals all wounds. I’m not sure this one will actually heal because there isn’t a day, most days an hour or even minute I don’t still think about him. If I’m watching TV and hear a creak in my old house, and even if I don’t hear it, I still look up expecting to see him taking a break on his way back from the bedroom, leaning on the kitchen island, or sitt...

My son asked if we could coordinate our calendars this morning. By that he means he wants to be sure I have correctly noted HIS work schedule on MY calendar. His schedule is from Monday to Sundayso when we got to next Sunday's hours, he noticed my annual reminder of (what would have been) Edmond's and my anniversary next Monday (9/18) and he wrapped his arms around me and said, "I'm so sorry Mom." I've been thinking about how I'll observe the day this year and how to, if possible, make it something other than completely teary, but mostly I realized that this will be the real 'kick-off' of a year of "Firsts" that I/we will have to live through without my Edmond.My Pop's birthday is 9/17 and Mom is serving cake and coffee to his friends we lovingly refer to as "The Good Ole Boys" at Cascade Christian Church on the 18th in the morning. I'm invited to that and if I'm feeling up to it I may join in. But I'm leaning t...

Well, it's been awhile since my last post. Looking back I see it was the day before my life was turned upside down. It still hasn't righted itself and I'm not sure it ever will. Oh I know it will get better, well, easier is maybe a more accurate way to put that because "better" is so subjective. My amazing family and dear friends are all doing so much to help me navigate while "upside down" and I'm so grateful. But all their help can't make my mind stay focused to do what I need to do now or fix this. My Darlin' Edmond On June 28th in the early morning hours a chain of events started that would change everything for me. My Darlin' Edmond, still groggy from the medications he took to help him sleep got up from bed to use the bathroom. He slipped, or tripped or something, lost his balance and fell hitting his rib cage on the foot end bed post. The impact fractured at least 4 ribs (the hospital just said "multiple" but...